My Life Right Now

My hands are getting ugly because of the arthritis. My pointer fingers have started to turn inward towards my middle fingers, and my pinkys are getting a lot more curved. Both my middle fingers are swollen a lot lately, but the right one is way worse. I gotta stop popping my fingers... Eek.

Theron is totally trying to help me figure out how to take care of my hands and arthritis. I think maybe he's scared too a little... I'm super scared, but I try not to show it, especially for him and Kelsey. She has this too, after all, and I don't want her to be afraid of turning out like me the rest of her life.

School is going great. I'm having a lot of fun. Kim is the nicest teacher I think I've ever had, and I really like having her as a friend too.

While it gets really tiring working two jobs, I'm okay with it. I'm bringing in pretty good money right now. Almost got my credit card payed off and starting to save up for my first car! Kmart isn't being so bad now either - now that Grrr knows that I can do layouts, she respects me a little more I think... which is sooo nice. Not to mention it's nice to have Nando & Lucas back from their various trips. Although I never get to see Megan anymore :'( She's going to Jamaica with her mom later this month, and totally not taking me! *pout* I suppose I could go next year... :)

I'm kinda nervous for my mom. She has to drive to the University of Michigan tomorrow for training for her other job and the car is crap... and so is the weather. I know that she'll be okay, but she still worries me... not to mention that's a whole week without mom... so I kinda have to be mom... which isn't easy if you're not super-human.

I got to talk to my real dad for the first time this weekend. It was a little awkward, but it went well I think. Theron had just gone to bed and I thought maybe I'd just write Chris an email. I'd been meaning to contact him for quite some time, but was entirely too nervous. The email ended up sounding okay, and I figured I couldn't do much better... so I sent it. I was so happy the next day when I got the reply. He already knew a lot about the things that I was involved in, per google. Funny thing is, that was how I was keeping tabs on him too. Sunday night he called me. He was nervous too, so that made it a lot better. I have a brother who's nine and a little baby sibling too! It was really good to talk to him. I know that everyone was a bit nervous and jealous at my house, but I feel a little more complete. I think now that I'm older I can understand why certain choices were made so I'm not so angry anymore.

Sorry I've not been posting a lot lately. Life just feels so hectic, you know?